walk away holding your tears

Sometimes you got to smile and walk away holding your tears and pretend you r ok. It happens but life goes on. Our reason for living is not in the things we acquire, but in the collection of memories, loves and friendships we gain along the way. Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anyone & you don't want to smile & you don't want to fake being happy but at the same time you really don't know what's exactly wrong either? One mistake can ruin your life, but it depends on how you take it, you can take that mistake and turn it around and learn from it. Have courage. When u says I love u don’t just say it because u think u r in love because if u don’t really mean it u will only end up hurting the person that u say u love. Sometimes people have hurt us. We ask ourselves, "Why me?" I say, "Why not me?" The things we go through in life happen for a reason and help prepare us for the next step in life. Have faith in yourself and anything you want will happen. Always go forward, don't go backward." We could all take a lesson from crayons, some are bright, some are beautiful, some are dull, some are short, some are tall, and some have weird names. But they all have to learn to live in the same box.

Its great to surf on those waves if you know that the lifeguard is there to help you, but what if the help is rendered to someone else at your expense………..Hmm now the situation looks dicey. Well don’t bother it’s not the end of everything…you dint start the surfing thinking that you would require help. You have the choice of either drowning in the upcoming waves or try to cry out for help (try the second option though even that isn’t going to help…coz mostly cries are left unheard).
Now you have another option that most of us have but don’t realize. You got to help yourself. Now the question is how…come one wait be patient am giving the solution………………………….
Since you have encroached into unknown territory you got to bail out your self. Slow down on your pace and swim back to the shore and make a promise to your self not to venture into unseen waters with some untrustworthy life support.
Love is also like unseen waters…looks calm and beautiful like the sea. But you got to be careful with the undercurrents. They can topple you off the surf board. There are few surfers who manage to get life support when they are caught of guard but everyone isn’t that lucky.
There are another group of people who never venture into such extreme sports but are happy with off shore games. They have a smooth trouble free life, but the worth of a trouble free life is valued and enjoyed only by one who has dared to go on the surf board with an untrustworthy life guard.

Appreciating Our Past
It is easy to be negative about past mistakes and unhappiness. But it is much more healing to look at ourselves and our past in the light of experience, acceptance, and growth.
Our past is a series of lessons that advance us to higher levels of living and loving. The relationships we entered, stayed in, or ended taught us necessary lessons.
Some of us have emerged from the most painful circumstances with strong insights about who we are and what we want. Our mistakes? Necessary. Our frustrations, failures, and sometimes stumbling attempts at growth and progress? Necessary too. Each step of the way, we learned. We went through exactly the experiences we need to, to become who we are today. Each step of the way, we progressed. Is our past a mistake? No. The only mistake we can make is mistaking that for the truth.
Today, God, help me let go of negative thoughts I may be harboring about my past circumstances or relationships. I can accept, with gratitude, all that has brought me to today.